Nope, no likin towards the song watsoever.. i do like romantic songs, country songs, slow,peaceful songs, but this doesn fit the bill.. But thats the feelin i've had all day today!! started a disaster, but couldnt ve ended any better.. no wait, it could have, but that dint happen.. Am not askin for much really, jus statin facts as it is..
Amazing how little things can soak u wet with emotions! started off with a msg from a very dear frien who jus left melbourne! :( now am really upset she's not arnd.. but i dont have a say in it, it sucks, but nothin i can do abt it! Now she's as sentimentally damaged as i am! the msg i got from her made my day.. i got up with a feelin of not leavin the bed for life.. But this sprang me right up! I always knew it, but to read it a way she wrote it, i really must ve done somethin amazingly right! Then there was the queue at a bus stop.. where this very pretty girl, very very cute, was standin with a tall bloke.. I interrupted him askin if the bus goes to footscray, he said yes, then i ask - really? he says yes dismissively.. then i ask - hey man, tell me seriously, i ve never been to this area before, does it go to the footscray station?? he breaks the conversation with the cute girl, smiles at me, very genuinely and tells me as nicely as he could - yes bro, it does go to footscray, a 5 minute ride, dont u worry.. i felt so guilty, i thot if i apologized, i'll be stealin some more time of his with his girl.. so i kept quite.. But he was right behind, well within earshot (i was not eavesdroppin okay?) when his girl says, alright u carry on, ll leave.. he goes- i'll wait till u enter.. haha.. now really, these kids must not be a day older than 19, but that was such a sweet gesture.. the girl made it a point to tell him that! I couldn't help but smile!
I then had to go meet my consultant, Erica, an extremely considerate, kind woman! I told her of the probs i faced talkin to an indian DLU officer, we had such a good laugh imaginin that! Its rare u get to see a woman laugh wholeheartedly, without chinta! N there i was, recountin my story, which was rather funny, but i had the privilege of watchin her laugh! I was shit tired until that point, that kinda refreshed me totally! She passed me of on an assigment which i wasn't actually willin to take up, had it not been for her laugh! Besides, it was in a suburb where my cheta works.. pattikad he calls it! so i had to go see it for myself! :-) Yyaannyyways, for this assignment i expected to meet another recluse kid where i'd jus finish my tasks n vacate.. But there comes the happiest lookin two people on the planet! There's a guy on this wheelchair, bein rolled by his sister.. And they looked sooo content! U cud literally see the content on their faces!
His sister led me to my seat.. the sheer mannerism with which she did that, i was left stunned! I couldn't help but think of my own sis! She tended to his every little need.. Every little tiny puny thing! That was 4 hours of my evenin, tired, long day's long evenin, which seemed like 4 mins at the end of it! There i was, doin math n watchin this amazin girl take such good care of her brother.. U had to see it to believe it.. Its injustice to the core if i rant off her actions one after another.. There's a sayin that eyes talk a lot.. Here she was, she dint just talk, she showered love on her brother without even utterin a word! To experience affection is one thing, where u take it for granted, so u dont realize the true extent of it, but to see it first hand, is a different thing altogether.. and i'm privileged to have been able to see that in a person soo dearly! I did a few things which am technically not supposed to do, but i couldnt stop myself from it! If it lands me in trouble, so be it.. I'd give an arm and a leg to spend another day with those two!
On the way back, it got me thinkin.. u see its 2nd september, a very special day for me.. hey, really, there's no meanin attached.. i always say that for everythin to happen, there's a reason behind it.. n the reason means somethin that makes it happen to begin with! But here i am, derivin no meanin, no reason either.. but the thot of the day does always bring a smile on my face! While all this was runnin thru, i was readin a newspaper to distract myself from this.. but it doesn leave u, does it? there was a column which read "i see you".. where people can leave msgs, coded or uncoded to other people based on somethin the previous day.. for eg, one of em read - "hey, i'm the guy who sits beside u every mornin at the parliament railway station, i really think ur very pretty, i'd like to know u more, so how abt a hi tomorrow mornin??"
Now how cool is that? Reflects a lot on hope doesn it? He writes this, which only she wud get n he's not even sure if she wud read this column! to my surprise, there were a dozen others like this! So it put me right back where i dint wanna be - lost in thoughts!! thats when i decided come wat may, this has to go up today.. Am dead tired, half sleepy, i've an idea of wat am writin, but no clue as to how am writin, yet its good enough to drive me to type this in the middle of the night! Somehow, the overwhelmin day i had will never get past me.. I wish i can relive this just one more time, in an infinite loop! heh.. jab bhagwan deta hai, chapppad phaadke deta hai.. so damn true.. i have enough today which just refuses to sink in, not that am tryin to, but it does sooner or later, doesn't it? Here it just doesnt seem likely!!! :D
I cant help but think, there's no limit to how much u can give.. now is there? We tend to hold back for so many reasons - Money constraints, to avoid bein taken for granted, to not give wrong ideas, to not particularly make anyone's day, just dont feel up to it, there's no reason why u shud to start off with, the reasons or the lack of reasons are innumerable! But thats the whole point - why shud u find a reason to give? Jus give! the joy in it jus cant be measured.. n it lasts forever.. longer than glory, coz they say, no matter how brief, glory lasts forever.. I say, this lasts beyond that! There's no such thing as gettin back as much as u give, givin in itself is gettin back aplenty! So watever u'd like to put under gettin back, i'd put under the bonus section! I saw a small glimpse of that today, i saw wats truly bein happy feels like, i saw wat truly givin happiness to someone feels like.. Yes, its a wonderful world! :)
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Comfort and peace!
This, i got started typin long long ago, left it midway for a reason i couldnt remember until just now.. N i just remembered that twas coz of not havin the comfort of finishin it then! heh..
These are the two things that matter a lot for one to live peacefully, dont they? It is unidirectionally symbiotic! or in other words, the latter depends on the former. Without the former, to attain the latter, u've to be in a world of opposite of the former! (that doesn make sense)
But well, thats pretty much the situation i am in, in this lost world, tryin to gain somethin which at some level, is always very precious for me!! To begin with, i was always in a world of comfort! and wen ur in it for too long, u take things for granted.. only wen u get out of it, u realize the true worth of all the people responsible for u to be in there to begin with!! full circle eh??
Either ways, in order to chase the thing i call precious, i've to let go of both the former n latter, jus delete it! Or in better words, ignore the want for it.. Sooner or later, u get used to not havin to think about it and the circumstances around u ease into the definition of havin it!
N thats exactly where i find myself now.. Like the way my ex-roomie/good budd put it, increase the threshold for ur tolerance and forget it, u'll find things a hell of a lot more pleasant.. And other important things take a higher priority and everythin continues like it always has.. Lesson learnt - take things as it come! everythin ll turn out just fine..
That's a lesson i learnt in the most beautiful way possible! Though pain was attached at the other end, the outcome was lovely nonetheless.. Life has a way of givin things back to u.. I had let go, given up, forgotten about the thing naggin n bam.. I got it right back! Ergo, i continue to not bother.. Everything is perfectly welcome, waitin with my arms wide open! :-)
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Bright n light!
Ahh.. had almost given up on bloggin.. not given up per se, but there was no reason i could find to log on n type! there's none today either.. but if there's no reason to not log on, there might as well be no reason to log on anyways.. and rant away!
Now i really wanna know if its jus me or does everyone who've ever dreamt of somethin n havin nearly gotten it (or on the pathway to it) feel so, particularly for those who go study masters abroad - IS IT REALLY WORTH IT? Does spendin all that money on education, livin expenses, livin with unmentionable-permanent-damage-causin-expletives sorta people, studyin (like 4 years of VTU wasnt enough) et cetera et cetera account to anythin? I know everyone feels this sooner or later in their lives, but its a naggin thought nonetheless! But guess wat? few things happened in the last few days which makes me feel - HELL YEAH, DEFINITELY WORTH IT!!!
I had this feelin a long time ago, jus before my 2nd sem started, but it all went straight to hell, now its kinda back up again.. and its a damn good feelin!!!! I left home today, luggin my laptop of which i had no great use, in other words, i had a heavy load on me! Yet, events transpired that made me sooo light! Now there are two people here in Mel whom i'd wanna share it with.. One's gone back for good to India, another s too busy finishin up assignments due in 4 hrs! Turned out, Yarra was my best mate (pun intended)! :) For anyone who's been to Mel, u know wat am talkin abt! Had the most liberating feelin at the end of it.. The best part is, an hour long quiet chat with Yarra, a 5 buck tip to the bagpiper who kept me company, a long walk back home and a beautiful movie later, its still not over!!
Evidently, am thinkin straight after a long long long time.. I prefer tracin back.. tracin back happens in my head by default, n until today i dint know there was another settin that existed, but there u go.. I'm leadin up rather than thinkin back! and yet, i've not yet come to a conclusion, coz u know, there needn't be one! Things are gonna unfold however the heck its going to.. Am jus waitin up to see how it does, oh heck, waitin is not the word, but its nice! :) To all my sweethearts, u know who u are, Thank You!
Monday, May 18, 2009
Love the song by Nelly Furtado - "why do all good things come to an end?"
Makes so much sense, the song. Time to throw in the cliche - change is the only constant in the world - which many ppl have told me in the past few days, if not weeks. Yea i know, i understand all that, but its the hardest to come to terms with.
This has been playin on my mind all along, which finally is materializin to words, thanks to prison break. All the random half, incomplete or pointless-until-now thoughts came gushin by which made perfect sense, coz i spent all day thinkin about it. I've 2 major reports due by the end of the night and there's bangalore playin a match at the end of the night, but here i am, thinkin about why, how and how perfectly it makes sense - which increases the pain by that much more.
You grow up gettin used to things around you, some u like, some u really loathe. But the bottom line is, u get used to it nonetheless. What happens when that changes? if its somethin u loathe, u welcome it, even thou somewhere deep inside, u dint want it to change, but if its somethin u really really love, how in the bloody hell is it dealt with??
Now i've been away for more than 3 months, which is a lot! and this is growing into me exponentially, which reflects in everythin i do! and all this is a result of the procastination that i keep doin.. When i faced a change that i dint want, i always chose to deal with it sometime later.. be it breakin of a beautiful frienship, creatin another one, breakin away from that, leavin ppl behind, gettin un-used to not havin my ppl arnd, dealin with news i dint wanna hear, finishin somethin jus coz i had to which i wud ve otherwise preferred to stretch jus so as to not miss it wen it aint there and a gazillion other things.
The result of the postponin is overwhelmin! All of it reflected in one shot which i'm not built to withstand! and of all the triggers to make me realize that i've pushed it too far, it had to be prison break! (Oh if ur wonderin wat that has gotta do with this, jus watch it.. If everyone had a support system like Michael does, the world ll be a better place!) But well, what do u know, the implications faced aint fair at all, nothin ever is, atleast not in ur favour coz if not u, there's always another beneficiary. But here, i cant even figure out who the beneficiary is! and if i can in some cases, i dont like it! aarrggghhh.. i sound like a li'l kid frettin over a toy.. but if the kid knows that it aint gonna be his/hers (i'm not a sexist!), the sense of loss is huge!!
Now imagine the sense of loss for a grown up, reasonably mature young fella. Not like i've lost nethin, jus that i'm lost myself. And in that process, everythin i do seems pointless.. why? coz without all the things that i've grown up soooo used to, everythin else is vague.. To put a meanin to the purpose i'm tryin to achieve, some recircuitry in my brain is needed. Until i figure that out, this is jus a way of sayin it out loud to express all that i want.. Miss those, a lot, to a point where the mere thought of it makes me go limp.. I'd rather be there n have it than stay away n say i miss it, but sadly, its not an option for now, which i've to learn to live with.. For all those who ve made a difference in my life (u know it!), thanks! I couldnt ve possibly meant it more, but i really am greatful. lol - and that stands for lots of love!
Makes so much sense, the song. Time to throw in the cliche - change is the only constant in the world - which many ppl have told me in the past few days, if not weeks. Yea i know, i understand all that, but its the hardest to come to terms with.
This has been playin on my mind all along, which finally is materializin to words, thanks to prison break. All the random half, incomplete or pointless-until-now thoughts came gushin by which made perfect sense, coz i spent all day thinkin about it. I've 2 major reports due by the end of the night and there's bangalore playin a match at the end of the night, but here i am, thinkin about why, how and how perfectly it makes sense - which increases the pain by that much more.
You grow up gettin used to things around you, some u like, some u really loathe. But the bottom line is, u get used to it nonetheless. What happens when that changes? if its somethin u loathe, u welcome it, even thou somewhere deep inside, u dint want it to change, but if its somethin u really really love, how in the bloody hell is it dealt with??
Now i've been away for more than 3 months, which is a lot! and this is growing into me exponentially, which reflects in everythin i do! and all this is a result of the procastination that i keep doin.. When i faced a change that i dint want, i always chose to deal with it sometime later.. be it breakin of a beautiful frienship, creatin another one, breakin away from that, leavin ppl behind, gettin un-used to not havin my ppl arnd, dealin with news i dint wanna hear, finishin somethin jus coz i had to which i wud ve otherwise preferred to stretch jus so as to not miss it wen it aint there and a gazillion other things.
The result of the postponin is overwhelmin! All of it reflected in one shot which i'm not built to withstand! and of all the triggers to make me realize that i've pushed it too far, it had to be prison break! (Oh if ur wonderin wat that has gotta do with this, jus watch it.. If everyone had a support system like Michael does, the world ll be a better place!) But well, what do u know, the implications faced aint fair at all, nothin ever is, atleast not in ur favour coz if not u, there's always another beneficiary. But here, i cant even figure out who the beneficiary is! and if i can in some cases, i dont like it! aarrggghhh.. i sound like a li'l kid frettin over a toy.. but if the kid knows that it aint gonna be his/hers (i'm not a sexist!), the sense of loss is huge!!
Now imagine the sense of loss for a grown up, reasonably mature young fella. Not like i've lost nethin, jus that i'm lost myself. And in that process, everythin i do seems pointless.. why? coz without all the things that i've grown up soooo used to, everythin else is vague.. To put a meanin to the purpose i'm tryin to achieve, some recircuitry in my brain is needed. Until i figure that out, this is jus a way of sayin it out loud to express all that i want.. Miss those, a lot, to a point where the mere thought of it makes me go limp.. I'd rather be there n have it than stay away n say i miss it, but sadly, its not an option for now, which i've to learn to live with.. For all those who ve made a difference in my life (u know it!), thanks! I couldnt ve possibly meant it more, but i really am greatful. lol - and that stands for lots of love!
Friday, April 10, 2009
Now that the objective is attained.... what was the objective again??
After a series of unfortunate events [1], i was under the impression that the 1st amongst all the events that took place was an inference from the objective that was attained and it was the most obvious part of the deal on the planet. Now i wonder, what the heck was the objective to begin with?
Well, its a passed on knowledge that when there's somethin u really like, try ur best to get it, but when the time comes to let it go, just let it go. This theory goes unquestioned, which holds good for the subconscious, so it never frickin occurs to the f-in head that u have all the rights to question it! where's the proof mate? So heck, i tried all i could to keep it dear to me. An acknowledgement for the effort was definitely there and that did it all. The acknowledgement as per the theory was proof enough to let go and so i did! Now after a series of unfortunate events (refer[1] again), i do realize that the acknowledgement was needed not for the effort, nay! twas needed for the answer that infers from the effort!
Now comes the big question...... Do i put in the effort again?
References:-
[1] lemony snicket's book
ps:- Its insane the kinda marks u lose for not quoting the references used! give it a break man.. so i've made it a point to quote references wherever i use em!
pps:- some ppl are gonna have mighty long conversations with me if i use the above made statement to my daily colloquy! ;-)
Well, its a passed on knowledge that when there's somethin u really like, try ur best to get it, but when the time comes to let it go, just let it go. This theory goes unquestioned, which holds good for the subconscious, so it never frickin occurs to the f-in head that u have all the rights to question it! where's the proof mate? So heck, i tried all i could to keep it dear to me. An acknowledgement for the effort was definitely there and that did it all. The acknowledgement as per the theory was proof enough to let go and so i did! Now after a series of unfortunate events (refer[1] again), i do realize that the acknowledgement was needed not for the effort, nay! twas needed for the answer that infers from the effort!
Now comes the big question...... Do i put in the effort again?
References:-
[1] lemony snicket's book
ps:- Its insane the kinda marks u lose for not quoting the references used! give it a break man.. so i've made it a point to quote references wherever i use em!
pps:- some ppl are gonna have mighty long conversations with me if i use the above made statement to my daily colloquy! ;-)
Friday, February 27, 2009
Anaseyo- korean for hello!
Korea.. what can one say about korea.. well what can one say about any place they visit? its always excitin to go be in a place where u havent gone n been before, even if the flights are freakin long - which i ve gotta get used to.. coz where am stayin, even the nearest place is a good 7 hrs flight!
Back to korea, the first thing that hit me after landin on their soil (more like the platform outside the exit gate.. coz within the airport it doesnt count, which still, by the way, does contain soil at the elementary level!), was the cold.. minus 12! In one hand i had my laptop bag and in another, had the cabin baggage.. my hands acted like hooks which were holdin these up! Then came my savior (or is it saviour?), my daddy!! he had a ear plug, a pair of gloves and a mufler waitin for me.. felt much much better.. coz of the cold, couldnt stay at seoul.. took another flight straight to ulsan..
Ulsan:- is where my dad works.. the industrial capital of korea.. thats where all their major industries are established.. To name a few - Hyundai heavy industries n motor company, sansui heavy industries, the korean power plant, KT - korea telecomm (:-D) and a few chhota mota heavy industries, which are big in itself..!! The place is awesome.. well if u ever happen to go there, there are city tours on a daily basis.. each day, a different schedule.. u'll cover pretty much everythin! The local transport is kinda bad thou.. there are only buses and taxis.. taxis can get expensive.. buses, well unless u know korean, u wudnt know how to pay, or worse, where to get off!! so thats one experiment thats made me walk more than 35 kms easily! more on that later..
The first weekend, a few of my dad's colleagues planned out a trip, to a place called muju- a skiing resort! we had to go past a place called miriyang dam to get there.. but damn! the dam was soo freakin beautiful, we stopped there itself.. at a gazebo at a high point on the hill, we COOKED and ate our food.. Well yea, this u shud know! even for a hardcore non vegetarian, korea can get bad! unless u have an international restaurant or a stomach for some real nasty stuff, cant survive there.. the next best thing is to cook urself, which my dad is a punter at! so thats wat we did.. awesome place, had a great time.. thou my teeth were chattering like stones on a conveyor belt (lousy lousy analogy!), twas worth goin there.. photos ll be up on orkut sometime soon i hope!!
Then i went to see a university called KAIST.. its one of the 2-3 unis in korea where english is the mode of instruction.. it has a beautiful campus, very very big.. well, say the size of 35-40 football fields easily! i thot BMSIT seemed like a resort of sorts, but in comparison to this, that looks like a public park in bangalore! as far as my dept is concerned, i only wish they had my course! but am pretty sure, some day ll visit the uni again.. jus for fun if it so turns out! This was one of the three best things in the holidays in korea! Its located in a place called daejeon.. this is much more international than ulsan.. they have a pretty good subway system, apart from the buses n taxis.. and for our benefit, its all in english, so with a map in ur hand, u can pretty much go anywhere in the city!
The weekend to follow, visited another major city called Busan.. There's a pretty popular beach called hae-undae, where they have an underwater aquarium.. Ive put up some snaps of those on orkut.. In the same place, there was a virtual world set up.. a 3D ride! twas fairly alright, but i mentioned it as a tribute to randy pausch.. (look up an entry by the same name or better, google it!) another must mention is the ride on the ropeway.. Its on a mountain called geumgang, where the cable car takes u up a kilometer n a half.. from the mountain top, u can see the entire city!!! the view is breathtakin (thou cliched).. Thats the best part about korea, all the cities are situated in between hills on flat lands, so climb up a hill n u can see the whole city! thats wen i really wished i had those carbon fibre wings! :-)
Meanwhile, Ulsan was awesome! The weather, thankfully was very pleasant.. every mornin i'd go out for a stroll somewhere arnd.. like i mentioned earlier, the city transport ll drive u mad! But it doesnt really matter for a tourist, now does it? hop on hop off wherever the heck u feel like! But comin back home is a bitch.. u really wudnt know how.. so wat i did was, got off at a place i've seen before with dad and walk back.. which translates from a 10 mins car drive to a 2 hrs walk! but twas fun nonetheless.. This is where i had the 1st and the 2nd best experience (to which the 2nd worst exp is tagged!).. Twas a longtime wish to spend holidays with dad.. it finally came true.. and to eat his cookin everyday, its a blessin i tell u! now that i cook myself (if not all of us that is), i realize wat eatin good, no wait, great food's worth is!! The 2nd best exp were the bars.. Korean bars.. every bar has a pool table! me n dad and dad's frien, paul uncle wud go there pretty much everyday! all we had to do was order an orange juice n play pool! I'd never had a better time i tell u.. Addictive game no doubt, but the other two were at the same level as me! (which is fairly decent mind u), so the competition was always fun! Add to this, the cutest and at the same time, the hottest korean girl on the planet, servin juice for u! (sounds lame that i ve to put juice there and not drinks, but well, i dont booze!) to top it all, she knew english! to top that, with a cherry i might say, she studies in sydney! pretty close by eh? another reason for me to go visit that city! but like i said, the 2nd biggest disappointment tagged with it- my dad keepin an eye on the girls i hit at! So the best i got was a hand shake n "hopefully see u in australia" from her.. it sucks that i dont even know her name! :-( But hey, sydney it is!!!
The most disappointing incident thou was missin the city tour bus.. My dad had scheduled an industrial tour for me, where i could visit the power plant, the hyundai motor car company and the heavy industries.. and i missed the darned bus coz the freakin driver's bus i sat in, dint know english! i saw the bus leavin right past me.. (twas like missin a majestic bus from j.p. nagar, only far far far more painful!) the day was pathetic.. took a walk back home all the way - 23 kms! depression does make me go on long walks, but this was by far the longest i've taken.. later on thou, dad took me to the heavy industries where i got to see the platforms bein built for the oil rig and the buildin of an alpine n a maersk ship.. kinda made up for the miss in more ways than one!
Then came the last weekend in the korea sojourn.. left to seoul 2 days in advance, to see the capital.. I stayed in a street called itae won which is mainly for foreigners.. too many brands there.. not to mention the multi cuisine restaurants.. But the street had one shop which i have to mention.. the board read:-
Make yourself..
... fucking lovely!
No kiddin mates.. N yea, u guessed right, its a lingerie shop! But well, otherwise, i could only go visit a museum nearby called the war memorial.. which had history legends on the korean seperation..But sadly, the temp was cold again.. dint want my hands hookin up, so dint go anywher else.. and that was the end of it.. End of my long, extended vacation..
The koreans are very nice people, very cultured.. they help u in every which way possible.. have never seen more honest people in life.. the average honesty level will easily surpass the most honest person in india, they re that nice! english can be a big big problem, but its easy to get by anyways.. their language is complicated, but a lotta fun to learn.. is it a place worth visitin u ask? hell yeah..
Back to korea, the first thing that hit me after landin on their soil (more like the platform outside the exit gate.. coz within the airport it doesnt count, which still, by the way, does contain soil at the elementary level!), was the cold.. minus 12! In one hand i had my laptop bag and in another, had the cabin baggage.. my hands acted like hooks which were holdin these up! Then came my savior (or is it saviour?), my daddy!! he had a ear plug, a pair of gloves and a mufler waitin for me.. felt much much better.. coz of the cold, couldnt stay at seoul.. took another flight straight to ulsan..
Ulsan:- is where my dad works.. the industrial capital of korea.. thats where all their major industries are established.. To name a few - Hyundai heavy industries n motor company, sansui heavy industries, the korean power plant, KT - korea telecomm (:-D) and a few chhota mota heavy industries, which are big in itself..!! The place is awesome.. well if u ever happen to go there, there are city tours on a daily basis.. each day, a different schedule.. u'll cover pretty much everythin! The local transport is kinda bad thou.. there are only buses and taxis.. taxis can get expensive.. buses, well unless u know korean, u wudnt know how to pay, or worse, where to get off!! so thats one experiment thats made me walk more than 35 kms easily! more on that later..
The first weekend, a few of my dad's colleagues planned out a trip, to a place called muju- a skiing resort! we had to go past a place called miriyang dam to get there.. but damn! the dam was soo freakin beautiful, we stopped there itself.. at a gazebo at a high point on the hill, we COOKED and ate our food.. Well yea, this u shud know! even for a hardcore non vegetarian, korea can get bad! unless u have an international restaurant or a stomach for some real nasty stuff, cant survive there.. the next best thing is to cook urself, which my dad is a punter at! so thats wat we did.. awesome place, had a great time.. thou my teeth were chattering like stones on a conveyor belt (lousy lousy analogy!), twas worth goin there.. photos ll be up on orkut sometime soon i hope!!
Then i went to see a university called KAIST.. its one of the 2-3 unis in korea where english is the mode of instruction.. it has a beautiful campus, very very big.. well, say the size of 35-40 football fields easily! i thot BMSIT seemed like a resort of sorts, but in comparison to this, that looks like a public park in bangalore! as far as my dept is concerned, i only wish they had my course! but am pretty sure, some day ll visit the uni again.. jus for fun if it so turns out! This was one of the three best things in the holidays in korea! Its located in a place called daejeon.. this is much more international than ulsan.. they have a pretty good subway system, apart from the buses n taxis.. and for our benefit, its all in english, so with a map in ur hand, u can pretty much go anywhere in the city!
The weekend to follow, visited another major city called Busan.. There's a pretty popular beach called hae-undae, where they have an underwater aquarium.. Ive put up some snaps of those on orkut.. In the same place, there was a virtual world set up.. a 3D ride! twas fairly alright, but i mentioned it as a tribute to randy pausch.. (look up an entry by the same name or better, google it!) another must mention is the ride on the ropeway.. Its on a mountain called geumgang, where the cable car takes u up a kilometer n a half.. from the mountain top, u can see the entire city!!! the view is breathtakin (thou cliched).. Thats the best part about korea, all the cities are situated in between hills on flat lands, so climb up a hill n u can see the whole city! thats wen i really wished i had those carbon fibre wings! :-)
Meanwhile, Ulsan was awesome! The weather, thankfully was very pleasant.. every mornin i'd go out for a stroll somewhere arnd.. like i mentioned earlier, the city transport ll drive u mad! But it doesnt really matter for a tourist, now does it? hop on hop off wherever the heck u feel like! But comin back home is a bitch.. u really wudnt know how.. so wat i did was, got off at a place i've seen before with dad and walk back.. which translates from a 10 mins car drive to a 2 hrs walk! but twas fun nonetheless.. This is where i had the 1st and the 2nd best experience (to which the 2nd worst exp is tagged!).. Twas a longtime wish to spend holidays with dad.. it finally came true.. and to eat his cookin everyday, its a blessin i tell u! now that i cook myself (if not all of us that is), i realize wat eatin good, no wait, great food's worth is!! The 2nd best exp were the bars.. Korean bars.. every bar has a pool table! me n dad and dad's frien, paul uncle wud go there pretty much everyday! all we had to do was order an orange juice n play pool! I'd never had a better time i tell u.. Addictive game no doubt, but the other two were at the same level as me! (which is fairly decent mind u), so the competition was always fun! Add to this, the cutest and at the same time, the hottest korean girl on the planet, servin juice for u! (sounds lame that i ve to put juice there and not drinks, but well, i dont booze!) to top it all, she knew english! to top that, with a cherry i might say, she studies in sydney! pretty close by eh? another reason for me to go visit that city! but like i said, the 2nd biggest disappointment tagged with it- my dad keepin an eye on the girls i hit at! So the best i got was a hand shake n "hopefully see u in australia" from her.. it sucks that i dont even know her name! :-( But hey, sydney it is!!!
The most disappointing incident thou was missin the city tour bus.. My dad had scheduled an industrial tour for me, where i could visit the power plant, the hyundai motor car company and the heavy industries.. and i missed the darned bus coz the freakin driver's bus i sat in, dint know english! i saw the bus leavin right past me.. (twas like missin a majestic bus from j.p. nagar, only far far far more painful!) the day was pathetic.. took a walk back home all the way - 23 kms! depression does make me go on long walks, but this was by far the longest i've taken.. later on thou, dad took me to the heavy industries where i got to see the platforms bein built for the oil rig and the buildin of an alpine n a maersk ship.. kinda made up for the miss in more ways than one!
Then came the last weekend in the korea sojourn.. left to seoul 2 days in advance, to see the capital.. I stayed in a street called itae won which is mainly for foreigners.. too many brands there.. not to mention the multi cuisine restaurants.. But the street had one shop which i have to mention.. the board read:-
Make yourself..
... fucking lovely!
No kiddin mates.. N yea, u guessed right, its a lingerie shop! But well, otherwise, i could only go visit a museum nearby called the war memorial.. which had history legends on the korean seperation..But sadly, the temp was cold again.. dint want my hands hookin up, so dint go anywher else.. and that was the end of it.. End of my long, extended vacation..
The koreans are very nice people, very cultured.. they help u in every which way possible.. have never seen more honest people in life.. the average honesty level will easily surpass the most honest person in india, they re that nice! english can be a big big problem, but its easy to get by anyways.. their language is complicated, but a lotta fun to learn.. is it a place worth visitin u ask? hell yeah..
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
De-purposed!
Been on my mind for a real long time, in the subconscious maybe.. but the realization occured last night! When do u know things have changed? and changed for good to top it? lookin back, seems like i've known since a long time.. jus dint realize it! and wen i realized it, twas 2 days before i left for good.. When evaluations in terms of percentages creeps in, u know the value u hold is not true.. I've been constantly evaluated for the last 6 months..! So, from 70-30, it tipped over to 50-50 and now finally 100-0.. makes me wonder, why wud anyone put an estimate on somethin? in order to predict whether or not it will tip to ur favour or not, right? So if u really want it to tip to ur side, u'd do somethin, anythin, in fact everythin to make it happen! but if u jus see wat wud naturally occur, then ur jus testin it! So i cant help but think, somethin u held so dear for so long, is it morally right, okay forget moral codes, is it right by any means to put it under testin conditions? u can only do that wen ur prepared to let go if the need arises.. aint it? thats exactly wat happened!
Whenever i write somethin, i have a very specific "audience" in mind, for whom i'd intend to read it out to or better put, to convey the message to! for anybody else, everythin i say wud seem utterly gibberish, unless they're way too liberal with their thought process.. So my very specific audience (consciously or subconsciously intended, i dunno, dont care!) has no possible way to reach out coz the givin up has already happened!
and yet i write! ironic huh?!? de-purposed it is! so writin without a purpose.. coz wat the heck, there neednt be one all the time? is there???
studyin wat i've been studyin offlate at such intense levels has made my big goal picture materialize faster n clearer than i had ever expected it to! earlier i thot that it was a big jigsaw puzzle where pieces are lost or misplaced, i jus have to put it in order.. but its one helluva lot more complex an analogy than a lame jigsaw puzzle (the analogy not the game, coz i loooovvveee jigsaws! even the saw series kind!).. so i cud relate it to somethin more complex like an unthought canvas.. the paint modification and the image in the head which is to be portrayed changes constantly to materialize to a masterpiece! haah.. very presumptuous to think of it as a masterpiece u'd think, but it is one, cant put another better word instead!
The best part of all this is, i always thot i had it all figured out, jus have to work towards it.. now that am workin towards it, there's a shit load more of stuff to figure out! and its fffuuunnnn... a lotta fffffuuuuuunnnnnn..
The sad part is, there's somethin really big missin in the whole journey! maybe i'm wholly responsible for it to be missin, so even if that maybe is a certainty, i tried makin amends to it.. some sorta demuxin n reroutin shud happen is all am hopin for! hehe.. to encrypt a message on a public forum is such a lame thing to have an attempt at! really..
So until that happens, i'll go stargazin on my desktop background! yeah, its my birthday! hehe..
Whenever i write somethin, i have a very specific "audience" in mind, for whom i'd intend to read it out to or better put, to convey the message to! for anybody else, everythin i say wud seem utterly gibberish, unless they're way too liberal with their thought process.. So my very specific audience (consciously or subconsciously intended, i dunno, dont care!) has no possible way to reach out coz the givin up has already happened!
and yet i write! ironic huh?!? de-purposed it is! so writin without a purpose.. coz wat the heck, there neednt be one all the time? is there???
studyin wat i've been studyin offlate at such intense levels has made my big goal picture materialize faster n clearer than i had ever expected it to! earlier i thot that it was a big jigsaw puzzle where pieces are lost or misplaced, i jus have to put it in order.. but its one helluva lot more complex an analogy than a lame jigsaw puzzle (the analogy not the game, coz i loooovvveee jigsaws! even the saw series kind!).. so i cud relate it to somethin more complex like an unthought canvas.. the paint modification and the image in the head which is to be portrayed changes constantly to materialize to a masterpiece! haah.. very presumptuous to think of it as a masterpiece u'd think, but it is one, cant put another better word instead!
The best part of all this is, i always thot i had it all figured out, jus have to work towards it.. now that am workin towards it, there's a shit load more of stuff to figure out! and its fffuuunnnn... a lotta fffffuuuuuunnnnnn..
The sad part is, there's somethin really big missin in the whole journey! maybe i'm wholly responsible for it to be missin, so even if that maybe is a certainty, i tried makin amends to it.. some sorta demuxin n reroutin shud happen is all am hopin for! hehe.. to encrypt a message on a public forum is such a lame thing to have an attempt at! really..
So until that happens, i'll go stargazin on my desktop background! yeah, its my birthday! hehe..
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